Wow! Seriously, a month and a half? It's been that long? We've been so busy that time really is flying by!
At last count, I had lost about 15 pounds. I've fallin' off the wagon so to speak.....sort of. Who didn't see THAT coming??? LOL!
After I ran those two miles, I couldn't seem to do it again and I got really discouraged. So discouraged that I just kinda felt like.....what's the point? I know, crazy but hey, I'm human. That's the thing about trying to lose weight. It's an up and down roller coaster ride. Some parts are more fun than others. I guess I'm just weak and get discouraged very easily. In fact, I know I do.
Well, I weighed in this morning. Haven't done that in a while, but I did. I have gained back between 3-4 pounds but I feel like it is way more. Funny how just a few stupid measly little pounds can make you feel like you've gained 20 pounds.
I have had a lot of things going on in my life the last few months and have been under A LOT of stress and through that I have come to realize that I am an emotional eater. Eating doesn't require emotion. It's the numbness of stress that causes the reaction. Sadly, I will admit that there are times when I am not even hungry and may go as far as to say that I might be full, but because of stress, I find something to do with my hands and unfortunately it's been to grab food. I have tried to make food be my comfort. That is NOT ok! I guess it's the same for those that smoke. It then becomes a habit and therefore is what you go to when you are dealing with any kind of emotion.
I am trying to change that. I'm trying to change the fact that I run to food for comfort instead of Jesus. He is my only comforter and in Him, I should take refuge. He is working in me on that! I am a work in progress until He returns which will complete me and make me whole. To Him I must run. Not food!
Exciting things are also going on around me and so I've got to get back on the journey that I started. I'm on a timeline! We have been so busy that by the time I think about doing what I know I should be doing, I'm tired and you know what happens....motivation is almost non existent. I'm trying to get back to that.
I actually did get on the treadmill today. I walked/ran a mile and a half. It's not alot, I know, but I gotta start somewhere. I also lifted some weights and did about 80 situps. I might have actually done 100, but at one point I was so into my praise music that I lost count!! AMEN???
Thank you to those that have sent me messages on FB checking on me and encouraging me!! It really means so much to me. Please pray for me. Pray that I will not let discouragement get me down. I can do this remember?? Yes, Yes, I can because I'M WINNING! HAHAHAHAAAA! Ok , SORRY, I couldn't help but do that.
Love you precious friends!! :)
